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最近的心情很容易被人或事物影响~也不知是什么原因~只要任何不经意的小事我就很容易产生失落感~那天跟妈妈发了脾气~事后好内疚~很讨厌自己每次让自己做后悔的事情~我到底是怎么了~不懂会不会得忧郁症啊~最近想的东西好多~最近好爱哭~动不动就哭~想到什么东西都哭~想到功课想到成绩想到学费想到家人~想到他~~~~都会哭~或许是我真的想太多了吧~把自己弄到很紧绷~总觉得好像什么事情都做不好~连做梦都梦到我考试不及格要重考~连做梦都梦到我哭着看他离开~无奈=_=美梦每次不成真~噩梦每次都是准的~无奈=_=我不喜欢这样的自己~真得很讨厌~希望这个礼拜的desaru trip不会泡汤~我真得很想好好地去散下心~不然我快负荷不了了~
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------我放不过我自己~转一圈回到了原地~我放不过我自己~仍相信爱会有奇迹~眼泪始终提醒~我还爱着你~

~*~when somebody loves me*~*~

final coming soon~so frustrated n i cant quieten myself to concentrate..oh my goodness!!!i cant b like dis~my final determine my future in my 3 years degree a~~if i fail my final i cant even proceed to my next semester~n i oso will spend money on dat~haiz~~but how how how?who can help me~pls stop asking me question about him!!i dun noe n i dun wish to noe~~~who cares if he really have new girl friend?why dun u all ask him by urself~i dunno i really dunno~~pls leave me alone!!i love him~n i trust him~pls respect my trust in him~thank u so much......

when somebody loves me~everything is beautiful~.......onli when he love me~~

i have to stand up by my own~
i have to face the consequences by my own~
why will it so unfair?
even i noe love is unfair..but why me?
why always me?
i'm not worth to love by people?

dun ever break my heart~
but u broke it~
it cant b mend~even if it mend~it will not b prefect anymore~

i'm leaving in one week time~really cant bear to leave KL like dis~but~~u wont care..i noe..even i leave wif a broken heart~

but i believe i will come back wif a brand new me in one month time~i will still love u~i will still care~but i wont find u~until u feel like wanna find me~dis is wat i think~i hope i will b strong~but sometimes i rather choose not to b strong~
can u understand my feeling?u wont noe how much u hurt me~u wont noe how selfish u r~
but i believe one day u will noe~
take care always~i will choose to leave u bcoz u asked me to leave~

~better in time~

finally my assignment is finish~but sill have one more to go~haiz~life is busy n we r juz live for our assignment n presentation~actually mayb dat's the best things for me so dat i wont spend time thinking of things dat upset me~i will recover de~even by myself~i hv to depend on myself le~it's really hurt~but i cant do anything~i dun even noe how to let him stay by my side~i love him~

Leona Lewis - Better In Time
It's been the longest winter without you

I didnt know where to turn to

See somehow I cant forget you

After all that we've been through
go in, come in

thought i heard a knock

who's there? no one

thinking that i deserved it

now i realize that i really didnt know

you didnt notice, you mean everything

quickly im learning, to love again

all i know is, im

ma be ok
thought i couldnt live without you

its gonna hurt when it heals to

it'll all get better in time

eventhough i really love you

im gonna smile cause i deserve to

it'll all get better in time
how could i turn on the tv

without something there to remind me

was it all that easy

to just put aside your feelings
if im dreaming

dont wanna let, hurt my feelings
but thats the path, i believe in

and i know that, time will heal ityou didnt notice, you mean everything

quickly im learning, to love again

all i know is, im

ma be ok
thought i couldnt live without you

its gonna hurt when it heals to

it'll all get better in time

eventhough i really love you

im gonna smile cause i deserve to

it'll all get better in time
since theres no more you and me

its time i let you go so i can be free

and live my life how it should be

no matter how hard it is ill be fine without you

yes i will
thought i couldnt live without you

its gonna hurt when it heals to

it'll all get better in time

eventhough i really love you

im gonna smile cause i deserve to

it'll all get better in time