==我们都要幸福==

最近假期都好像没在放假~
拜一到礼拜都要好早起身哦 =.="..
比起我的读书生活~
现在反而更累~
早知道这样当初就不要皮痒答应去做工了~
而且又不是赚几百万~
搞得我每天放工回家就睡觉~
连跟我baby联络的时间都牺牲掉了~
还真的好想念他~

难得今天想写些东西~
但其实也不懂要写什么好~
哈哈~ 就来写写我喜欢的张小娴~

已经忘了我是什么时候爱上张小娴的~
只记得是在我最孤独低落~
一个人逛书店时~

偶然发现了张小娴的书~ 应该就是从那时候开始吧~

她总是说穿我的心情~
不对~应该说是所有女生的心情~
我喜欢她的爱情观~
让我也对爱情有了另一番见解~

前阵子baby送过我一本张小娴的《离别曲》~


那是我找了很久的一本书~
超开心的~
我还开他玩笑说以后如果我们分开了我会把这本书还给他~
其实这也是蛮好的主意嘛~
毕竟如果真的有那么一天~
这本书应该会成为我最痛的记忆~
那为何不自私点把这记忆还给对方？
哈哈~听起来还真的有点悲~
没错~我对爱情~就是少不了这点悲观~

《离别曲》算是一本小说~
讲述着错中复杂的爱情故事~
其实我对它的结局蛮失望的~
但却也同时觉得它的结局与众不同~
因为小说总是让人觉得一定会happily ever after~
这个却相反~
相爱的人~
最终没能在一起~
我很喜欢它里面的这段话~
《唯有爱情~始终如此的兴奋与渴望~又始终如此的挫败与荒凉~》
这句话让我有所领悟~

人与人之间的相处~
本来都要预买哪天会分离的~
有时会觉得反而分开后才更加了解对方~
更懂对方要的其实是什么~
很遗憾吧？
我真的这样觉得~

有些人~
或许真的注定只能活在记忆里~
打从心里希望~
我们都会幸福~
即使不是从彼此身上得到~

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原来，人只是拥抱着时间洗涤不去的记忆~
爱也好~恨也好~不会全部留着~
我们记得一些~忘了一些~
忘了为何忘了~也害怕会忘了不想忘记的；
最璀璨的、深爱过的记忆~
更不向对方比我首先忘记~


P.S. 这是我最近刚买的 《张小娴---永不永不说再见》~里头的这段话~正是我此刻想说的~

我们~
都一定要幸福~~

^来张我的近照吧^

==helpless==

feel so helpless when i see him sick yet i cant do anything for him~
i think he's really been thru tough time during work~
hope he can get well soon~

but...why my baby always sick???
haiz.......

Dear lord~
i commit him into ur hands~
please take away his pain~
please heal him completely so that i can go back to JB with peace~
in Jesus name i pray~
Amen~

(>.<、) feel like crying........

==Gambateh Baby!!==

thank God for answered my prayer~
baby finally found a job!!!
he will work in Jaya 33,Bruno's restaurant and Bar as a cook~

feel so happy for him..
but feel so lonely in the same time~
he can't accompany me every time like before anymore~
his working hours is damn long wei~
my pity baby~
anyway still hope that he will find what he want in this career~

i know it will be tough in the beginning but i believe he can do it^^
i will learn to be understanding as well as he will be busy for his work~

finally my exam is finished~
and i will be back to JB this sunday~
glad that i can see my family and friends soon~
but i will leave baby for one and a half months~
it consider VERY LONG for us because we didn't leave each other before for so long=.="
i guess i will miss him badly~
as for now i already misses him so much...>.<

baby must be strong k?
my heart will always be with you wherever i go~
all the best in your new path of your life~
and you know that i will always support you^^
jia you!!!

==Should i???==

i went to Tropicana City Mall with baby after his interview dis afternoon~
we went for a movie~
hehe~finally he willing to watch DRAG ME TO HELL with me..:p
unfortunately, the movie wasn't that nice than i expected=.="
maybe i heard too much of compliment about dis movie~
i think we shouldn't hear too much compliment when we wanna watch a movie~
because our expectation will be very high when we heard "the movie is DAMN nice!!" more than 3 times~this is what my CG leader told me..:p
anyway~we have a great time watching this kinda lame movie~

This is the 1st time we went to Tropicana City Mall even though it actually very near from our house~
it just a normal shopping mall like others but it seems to be have less people~
maybe it's because it just newly open~
i passed by MONSOON-----a hair salon which quite famous and it having promotion~
make my heart feel itchy to cut my hair~(oops!spend money again..:p)
so i went in~
and came out with this-----




nice or not??
i LIKE this hairstyle alot~
but it's actually only can last for today=.="
because i didn't perm it~
the stylish recommend me to perm my hair but i scared i will regret~
he end up blow it with blower and tell me if i perm my hair i will look like this~
so he asked me to consider about it~

the end of the story is.........

my heart is very itchy now........
SHOULD I PERM MY HAIR????

lolz.....

=男人心裡的男孩=

男人什麼都聽你的，你覺得他沒性格。誰又會愛一個她覺得沒性格的男人？

他不聽你的話，那也不行。你的話他一句都不肯聽，你會覺得他對你不好，不愛你。你說的話，明明都是為了他好。

那麼，一個男人到底要聽話到什麼程度，又要不聽話到什麼程度，才會教你心甜也心碎？

愛一個人，不都是在心甜與心碎之間流轉嗎？

是有那麼一個人，讓你時而歡笑，時而掉眼淚，又在你想笑的時候把你弄哭，在你想哭 的時候逗得你笑了出來。你其實沒那麼獨裁，不是要他什麼都聽你的，你只是不喜歡在你想他聽你的時候他偏偏不聽。可是，從一開始，你明明不是想找一個聽話的 男人，而是想找個你愛的，能夠和你說一輩子話的人。誰又知道，逗你笑的人，往往也是把你氣哭的人。

終於你學乖了，想男人聽你的話，只會氣死自己，那麼，倒不如不要理他。當你不理他，他反而會聽你的。無論年紀有多大的男人，心裡若不是住著一個反叛的小男孩，就是住著一個長不大的小男孩或是一個老小孩。看你愛的是他心裡哪一個男孩。

《张小娴----男孩心里的男孩》

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糟糕的心情看了这片部落格后心情好多了~
张小娴总是让我心情变得很好~
而且每次都超适合我当下的心情~
虽然某个人曾说我看张小娴看到走火入魔了~=.="
哈哈~是有点啦~

今天过得蛮开心的~
下午跟姐妹吃午餐~
晚餐又跟某个他吃的超饱的~

好像很少跟他那么开心地吃饭走走~
感觉上跟他做朋友比做情人还舒服吧~
或许有些人真的注定只能当一辈子朋友~
有时候会想如果当初没有选择这条路的话现在会是怎样的~
可是很多时候真的很难找到答案~
而人只能不断地往前走~不停走~
只希望我们能一辈子把对方当做珍惜的朋友~

我要的人生是怎样的？你要的呢？
你可以说我做得不对~也能说我要的太多~
但起码我已经明确地告诉你我要的是什么生活了~
当你让我觉得我很想放手不管你的事时~我竟然异常地平静~
我真的不懂我还能怎么样~

希望我说的你会好好的去想想~
我不想让我怀疑自己的选择是不是错的~
虽然我知道我没有后悔的余地~
我更没有想过要过回以前的生活~

我说过的~
我并没有要你说你一辈子爱我~
只要不要让我觉得孤单就好~~

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或许不是你给的不够~
而是我不知道自己要什么~

晚安.....