^hang out wif best sista~*

hang out wif amy n er yesterday~
and we went for a hair cut~
damn regret for choosing that salon~
but we cant do anything wif it~
haiz....
quite bad mood today bcoz i really dun like my hair~
some more today weather damn hot weih~
make my mood more sucks....=.="

i have ntg to say abt my new hair style~
so people...pls dun talk abt dis anymore...>.<

anyway~
we still enjoyed our time 2gether~
dis is frens are for^^
SiStA 4ever ya^^

Gathering wif my Girls~*

Finally we meet up 2gether last nite at Yi You Wei Jing,Pelangi^^
have lots of fun and talks 2gether until we forgot the time..:p
i'm so happy that everytime when i come bek from KL i will have the chance to meet them up~
anyway that's how we maintain our frenship rite?^^

see u girls in our coming gathering~
i guess will be on Ming Li's B'day Party~
Hugs and Kisses~*

Jia Yin~
u r rite~
"幸福可以很简单"

~assignments~

supposed to start my assignments now~
somehow dun feel like doin~
totally no mood~
haiz~

give me strength pls~
i need something or somebody to give me some MOMENTUM!!!

hate assignments!!!

^Baby's off day^

Sunny Day^^^^^^^^Thursday^^^^^^^^03-09-2009

finally it's baby off day~
went to class in the morning~
bek from college around 12.30pm~
start dressing for the date^^

baby reach my place at 1pm~
but i still dealing wif my hair~
haha~he waited me for almost one hour~
so pity~and he's hungry...=p

finally we go out for our lunch~
planning to having lunch in a thai restaurant at Seksyen 17,My Elephant~
but it closed at 2pm for resting hour..=.="
so we end up having my thai cuisine in Jaya 1~

Kinnaree, a quite nice restaurant wif nice environment~
food is pretty good~
but i still prefer My Elephant...
hehe~
btw~we enjoyed the lunch^^




went bek home for a nap and we went to The Curve at nite~
having dinner at The curve street~
glad that we can spend whole day 2gether~





happy happy^^

~Thanks~

^sweet supper of the day^

thanks baby for dis Carbonara~
sometimes will feel so sorry that i didn't really do much things for u but u will always put me 1st in everything~

u have been working so hard for the future~
yet sometimes i will be just so so inconsiderate~
honestly i will feel very bad every time when i thrown tantrum at u out of no reason~
u know i didn't mean it~don't you?
with all the hurtful word that i said and hurtful things that i done~
just to say sorry~

feel happy that u strike so hard for ur Job~
even though with all the wounds on your hand~
trust me~my heart will be more painful than ur wound every time i see it~

just to let u know~
i will support every decision you made~
and i believe u will made the right choice^^

and once again~
thanks for everything that u have given me~
Love u baby~*

=SUCKS=

it's only one word that can describe my feeling now....
SUCKS!!!!
i actually cried~
but i dunno wat's the reason that i react like dat...
sounds stupid...
but it's truth...
maybe i'm juz a person who really needs lots and lots and lots of attention...
i've tried to be understanding...
yet i can't be understanding in this moment...

suddenly someone was in my mind....
how would i miss dat person....
haha...it's ridiculous....
i noe...
and worst i made another ridiculous things...

wake up please....
crapppp...............
i realize that i always like to crap during dis hour....
in this kind of lonely nite...

or juz mayb....
i will only be honest to myself during dis hour....
in this kind of lonely nite....

^My diet plan....=.="^

dis few nite i have been on my diet plan which i dun eat heavy dinner at nite~
but guess wat?i ate supper almost everynite~
thanks to my baby for always prepare food for my supper~
sob sob~my diet plan.....GONE!!!
by the way~the food was nice and it really hard for me to not finish it up~
but still~so sweet of him~
hehe~hard to find someone who always think of u no matter where he is~
thanks baby~

^pasta by him~yummy*^

well....i had a FATTENING lunch dis afternoon~
sigh~but i didnt eat dinner la~
so...i think shud be no problem..*grin*
erm..erm...juz afraid he prepare supper for me again~~
anyway~DIS IS MY LUNCH!!!

^fruits salad+nice environment*^

^Today special~chicken chop*^

^finally~here comes our dessert~tiramisu*^

me,shari and michelle try out a new cafe named CHILLAX near our college~
the environment there was good and the food was not bad~
there's a free wifi service there~
i think we found a good place to hang out/discussion/crapping/revision and etc...

my family coming up to KL dis weekends~
haha~looking forward for the day to come~
Muackz...miss them so much^^

^Rainbow after the rain^

I'm back!!!
today is my 1st day of school~
ha ha~finally school has started~after one and half months holidays~
feeling so refreshing and excited about it but i had my period today..=.="
best welcome gift of all....

Well..I've been working during my sem break~
and i realize that i really dun like office work~
it's a boring and tiring work for me~
worst than when i was working in education center before i came for further study weih!
In fact i quite enjoyed the time when i meet all my little kids~
Maybe this Job suits me better..:p

Anyway~After this sem break i feel like i dun wanna graduate so fast~
coz working is really so tiring~so stupid right?
Anyhow and anyway...
that's my thought now..wahaha...
it's a blessing to be a student i guess~

haha~and of course i'm back with my baby now~
that's the best part..=)
he is just as sweet as before..*grin*
he has made the Tiramisu for me~
that's the Tiramisu he made----------------


Look nice right?hehe~
it's really so sweet of him...*shy*
thx baby for the surprise~*Muackz*

God has been so Good to me~
he has been given me all the best thing in my life~
Best parents~Best sibbling~Best frens~Best education~Best course mate~Best room mate~Best lifestyle~and of course.....My sweetest baby~*shy*=p

Life is full of uncertain~
I was once in very down state of life~
Being hurt~being discourage~and being self-pity~
thank God than he bring me through~
And made me who I am today~

Never blame God for anything because he gave us everything~
He has place the storm to our life but he will always gave us the rainbow as well~
I've seen the rainbow after the rain~
What about you guys?

^God made me who I am today^

^fruitful weekend^

haha~
been enjoying my last weekend in JB with my family and frens^^
glad that i can meet them up and have a wonderful time before i'm goin back to KL~

well~
Jia Yin b'day on saturday and i can meet all my SDJ girls during the party~
so happy to see them and of coz the b'day girl^^
we have been preparing her present dis few weeks and finally we came out the idea of making a b'day booklet for her~
i believe she will like it coz i knew she will definitely feels our heart~
don't YOU?:p
juz wanna to tell my SDJ girls that u girls r always on my mind even though sometimes i might neglect u all~
and most important to our b'day girl...................
STAY CHEERFUL always and HAPPY B'DAY once again^^

(finally the photo is OUT^^)

^me n b'day girl^

^Our Forever Frenship^

^Ban Ban Luck^

Amy is back from KL for her weekends too~
and we having a gathering juz now(it consider LAST nite actually...:p)~
it's a happy gathering and we talk alot of stuff~
of coz with our MR Fong Tee Chuan~our gathering will not be boring^^
glad that Everyone is doin fine~
we always knew that our frenship will never end even we didnt meet each other for a long time^^

few of the photo we took juz now^^



finally~
i'm so happy that i'm goin bek KL soon but oso sad that i have to leave my family again~
i plan to make my dis semester be a fruitful semester and i believe i can do it...:p~
i need to start my DIET plan too!!!
i want to be SLIM like before!!!!
haha~i noe it's hard....but......ehem....i will try my best~
i can do it by God's STRENGTH !!!

Good nite everyone~
and baby i'm goin bek soon^^

==我们都要幸福==

最近假期都好像没在放假~
拜一到礼拜都要好早起身哦 =.="..
比起我的读书生活~
现在反而更累~
早知道这样当初就不要皮痒答应去做工了~
而且又不是赚几百万~
搞得我每天放工回家就睡觉~
连跟我baby联络的时间都牺牲掉了~
还真的好想念他~

难得今天想写些东西~
但其实也不懂要写什么好~
哈哈~ 就来写写我喜欢的张小娴~

已经忘了我是什么时候爱上张小娴的~
只记得是在我最孤独低落~
一个人逛书店时~

偶然发现了张小娴的书~ 应该就是从那时候开始吧~

她总是说穿我的心情~
不对~应该说是所有女生的心情~
我喜欢她的爱情观~
让我也对爱情有了另一番见解~

前阵子baby送过我一本张小娴的《离别曲》~


那是我找了很久的一本书~
超开心的~
我还开他玩笑说以后如果我们分开了我会把这本书还给他~
其实这也是蛮好的主意嘛~
毕竟如果真的有那么一天~
这本书应该会成为我最痛的记忆~
那为何不自私点把这记忆还给对方？
哈哈~听起来还真的有点悲~
没错~我对爱情~就是少不了这点悲观~

《离别曲》算是一本小说~
讲述着错中复杂的爱情故事~
其实我对它的结局蛮失望的~
但却也同时觉得它的结局与众不同~
因为小说总是让人觉得一定会happily ever after~
这个却相反~
相爱的人~
最终没能在一起~
我很喜欢它里面的这段话~
《唯有爱情~始终如此的兴奋与渴望~又始终如此的挫败与荒凉~》
这句话让我有所领悟~

人与人之间的相处~
本来都要预买哪天会分离的~
有时会觉得反而分开后才更加了解对方~
更懂对方要的其实是什么~
很遗憾吧？
我真的这样觉得~

有些人~
或许真的注定只能活在记忆里~
打从心里希望~
我们都会幸福~
即使不是从彼此身上得到~

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原来，人只是拥抱着时间洗涤不去的记忆~
爱也好~恨也好~不会全部留着~
我们记得一些~忘了一些~
忘了为何忘了~也害怕会忘了不想忘记的；
最璀璨的、深爱过的记忆~
更不向对方比我首先忘记~


P.S. 这是我最近刚买的 《张小娴---永不永不说再见》~里头的这段话~正是我此刻想说的~

我们~
都一定要幸福~~

^来张我的近照吧^

==helpless==

feel so helpless when i see him sick yet i cant do anything for him~
i think he's really been thru tough time during work~
hope he can get well soon~

but...why my baby always sick???
haiz.......

Dear lord~
i commit him into ur hands~
please take away his pain~
please heal him completely so that i can go back to JB with peace~
in Jesus name i pray~
Amen~

(>.<、) feel like crying........

==Gambateh Baby!!==

thank God for answered my prayer~
baby finally found a job!!!
he will work in Jaya 33,Bruno's restaurant and Bar as a cook~

feel so happy for him..
but feel so lonely in the same time~
he can't accompany me every time like before anymore~
his working hours is damn long wei~
my pity baby~
anyway still hope that he will find what he want in this career~

i know it will be tough in the beginning but i believe he can do it^^
i will learn to be understanding as well as he will be busy for his work~

finally my exam is finished~
and i will be back to JB this sunday~
glad that i can see my family and friends soon~
but i will leave baby for one and a half months~
it consider VERY LONG for us because we didn't leave each other before for so long=.="
i guess i will miss him badly~
as for now i already misses him so much...>.<

baby must be strong k?
my heart will always be with you wherever i go~
all the best in your new path of your life~
and you know that i will always support you^^
jia you!!!

==Should i???==

i went to Tropicana City Mall with baby after his interview dis afternoon~
we went for a movie~
hehe~finally he willing to watch DRAG ME TO HELL with me..:p
unfortunately, the movie wasn't that nice than i expected=.="
maybe i heard too much of compliment about dis movie~
i think we shouldn't hear too much compliment when we wanna watch a movie~
because our expectation will be very high when we heard "the movie is DAMN nice!!" more than 3 times~this is what my CG leader told me..:p
anyway~we have a great time watching this kinda lame movie~

This is the 1st time we went to Tropicana City Mall even though it actually very near from our house~
it just a normal shopping mall like others but it seems to be have less people~
maybe it's because it just newly open~
i passed by MONSOON-----a hair salon which quite famous and it having promotion~
make my heart feel itchy to cut my hair~(oops!spend money again..:p)
so i went in~
and came out with this-----




nice or not??
i LIKE this hairstyle alot~
but it's actually only can last for today=.="
because i didn't perm it~
the stylish recommend me to perm my hair but i scared i will regret~
he end up blow it with blower and tell me if i perm my hair i will look like this~
so he asked me to consider about it~

the end of the story is.........

my heart is very itchy now........
SHOULD I PERM MY HAIR????

lolz.....

=男人心裡的男孩=

男人什麼都聽你的，你覺得他沒性格。誰又會愛一個她覺得沒性格的男人？

他不聽你的話，那也不行。你的話他一句都不肯聽，你會覺得他對你不好，不愛你。你說的話，明明都是為了他好。

那麼，一個男人到底要聽話到什麼程度，又要不聽話到什麼程度，才會教你心甜也心碎？

愛一個人，不都是在心甜與心碎之間流轉嗎？

是有那麼一個人，讓你時而歡笑，時而掉眼淚，又在你想笑的時候把你弄哭，在你想哭 的時候逗得你笑了出來。你其實沒那麼獨裁，不是要他什麼都聽你的，你只是不喜歡在你想他聽你的時候他偏偏不聽。可是，從一開始，你明明不是想找一個聽話的 男人，而是想找個你愛的，能夠和你說一輩子話的人。誰又知道，逗你笑的人，往往也是把你氣哭的人。

終於你學乖了，想男人聽你的話，只會氣死自己，那麼，倒不如不要理他。當你不理他，他反而會聽你的。無論年紀有多大的男人，心裡若不是住著一個反叛的小男孩，就是住著一個長不大的小男孩或是一個老小孩。看你愛的是他心裡哪一個男孩。

《张小娴----男孩心里的男孩》

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糟糕的心情看了这片部落格后心情好多了~
张小娴总是让我心情变得很好~
而且每次都超适合我当下的心情~
虽然某个人曾说我看张小娴看到走火入魔了~=.="
哈哈~是有点啦~

今天过得蛮开心的~
下午跟姐妹吃午餐~
晚餐又跟某个他吃的超饱的~

好像很少跟他那么开心地吃饭走走~
感觉上跟他做朋友比做情人还舒服吧~
或许有些人真的注定只能当一辈子朋友~
有时候会想如果当初没有选择这条路的话现在会是怎样的~
可是很多时候真的很难找到答案~
而人只能不断地往前走~不停走~
只希望我们能一辈子把对方当做珍惜的朋友~

我要的人生是怎样的？你要的呢？
你可以说我做得不对~也能说我要的太多~
但起码我已经明确地告诉你我要的是什么生活了~
当你让我觉得我很想放手不管你的事时~我竟然异常地平静~
我真的不懂我还能怎么样~

希望我说的你会好好的去想想~
我不想让我怀疑自己的选择是不是错的~
虽然我知道我没有后悔的余地~
我更没有想过要过回以前的生活~

我说过的~
我并没有要你说你一辈子爱我~
只要不要让我觉得孤单就好~~

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或许不是你给的不够~
而是我不知道自己要什么~

晚安.....

==Promise。Broken==

It's really hard to know that what kind of life that we want to lead~
I doubt whether everyone satisfied with the life they are leading now~

Things changes every moment~
Things changes by different circumstances~
And we can't denied that our life is full of uncertain~
We can't predict what will happen next~
We can't predict that we are always choosing the right path that we suppose to choose~

Am i satisfied with my life now?
I didn't really think of it~
Human being will never satisfied even when they owns everything~
In fact,Humans are greedy creature~

I know everyone are imperfect~
But my expectation for YOU are always higher than anyone else~
Perhaps i scared to get hurt again?i guess..

Things always changes minutes by minutes~
That's the scary part~
One day we might lose each other~
Who knows?

Blogging with all these crap in the middle of this lonely night~

YOU break your promise again~

==适当的依赖==

我们都知道适当的依赖是一种信任和亲昵的表现~
去回应这种依赖就是爱~

只是~
我们往往无法准确的决定依赖的重量~

太轻了~
对方没有安全感~

太重了~
又轮到自己没有安全感~

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爱情这门学问真的是怎样都学不会的吧~
敏感的我~总是把自己的想法套在对方的身上~
我以为来你以为去~最终往往以遗憾收场~

我缺乏安全感~
很容易感到不安~
或许真的应该调整一下自己了~

我总觉得我最善解人意~
但最近发现其实我是最自私的~
是不是应该保持点距离呢?
我想适当的距离是应该的~
不然会无法呼吸~

不过我真的不喜欢被遗弃的感觉~
该自我反省一下~

你已经做得很好了...

==女人不该让男人太累==

我想经历了那么多事情之后~
人或许真的会变吧~
“性情大变”
用这句成语来形容再好不过~

很多时候~
我似乎觉得我已经不再是我~
很努力的想找回自己~
但越走越远~
回不去了~

又或许~
这才是真正的我~

人啊~
总是很努力的把自己归类在现实生活~
努力的让自己适应自己觉得应该适应的生活~
不是吗？
随着时间的流逝~渐渐的把最初的自己给弄丢了~

我们总说别人变了~
其实每个人都会变的~
而且是每一天~
因为我们每天都在随着环境而改变~
因为我们必须随着环境而改变~

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每当一个学期快完的时候~
我总是感触好深~
眼看时间一分一秒的过去了~
不知不觉已经过了一年~
这一年里所发生 的事情~
让我觉得自己也慢慢的在改变~
以往所坚持的~执著的~都令自己怀疑~
是不是我所坚持所执著的都那么没价值？

偶尔还会看见他的影子~
在我心底最深处徘徊着~
跟回忆赛跑很累人的~
所以偶尔我会选择放慢脚步~
每当跟回忆并肩走的时候~
只能够冷眼看待着这一切~
回忆是冷的~
我的心也是冷的~
然后又还会继续努力的跑呀跑~

不管现在爱着的人是谁~
他还是还没成为我的过去式~
虽然现在过的生活比以前好到没得比~
呵呵~或许人都是犯贱的吧~

很多事情~
走远了就回不去了~
即使见了面也没感觉~
虽然心还是被拨动~
但只要他过的好就好~
真的~只要你过得比我好~~

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最近的我~
脾气坏到不行~
莫名其妙的就会发脾气~
莫名其妙的会觉得不耐烦~
发完之后才会惊觉自己是不是太过分了~
尤其是面对一直呆在我身边的他~
我更觉得愧疚~

他应该被珍惜的~
而他也是我最不想伤害的人~
那天他问我~
我可不可以在做任何事情的时候想一想他的感受~
我忽略了他的感受~
我真的觉得抱歉~
或许他也开始觉得有点累了吧~
总是在意我的感受多过他自己的~
而我也已经没有说抱歉的习惯了~

我想我应该好好的反省~
毕竟他才是值得我爱的人~

男人不该让女人流泪~
除了感动的泪之外~
他从来没让我掉眼泪~

女人不该让男人太累~
我让他掉了泪~
还让他替我擦为别的男人流的泪~
我的确应该好好的反省~

我会努力的~
我相信我可以~
谢谢你一直以来的包容~
真的抱歉~
让你受委屈了...

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你不用说你永远爱我~
你不要让我感到孤单就好了~
《张小娴--重量极情话》

--属于--

梁静茹--属于

我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢

或许吧
或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧
或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
我们还要努力


属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌吧
属于我们的 爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢

是他吧
命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧
他原来就在这里啊

--永不复来--

原来~
我们所经历的一切~
虽然永不复来~
却不会消失至无~


《张小娴---时间的多情尾巴》

THAT'S YOU^^

真相永远都是最残忍的~
所以我说有时候我宁愿永远不知道我不想知道的东西~
记得曾经相爱的画面就好不是很好吗？
为何所记得的却是一个接着一个的伤害~
心其实很累很累了~
尤其沾了点酒精之后~才发现心其实好累好累~
这也是为什么好久都不敢碰它~

我是自私的吧~
豁出去了~却偶尔给我的他带来无心伤害~

心情还是容易被那个他拨动~
无意听见他的消息~
我偶尔的慌神~出卖了我自己~
他装不在意~依旧牵着我的手~说: ok的~
我突然的沉默~被回忆拉回去的时候~
他还是依旧牵着我的手~说: 喂~别想了哦~
感动~感激~幸福~因为他给我的一切~
他的善解人意~让我更加努力的跟回忆赛跑~
我们不能输给时间~

想起过去~其实都只全是失望而已~所以又何必要放不下呢？
我想我现在应该做的事是~走出过去~珍惜眼前的他~
虽然不能确定自己要的是什么~但我知道自己不愿意失去他~


find a guy~
who called u beautiful instead of hot~

who calls u back when u hang up on him~

who will stay awake juz to watch u sleep~

who kisses ur forehead~

who wants to show u off to the world when u r in ur sweats~

who holds ur hand in front of his friends~

who constantly reminding u of how much he cares abt u and how lucky he is to have u~

who turns to his frens n says "that's her"~

u noe wat?i found dis guy~~
tat's you~BRIAN TAN!!^^

^AGNES CHAN -- BRIAN TAN^